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syrup
01:10
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2. |
candles
03:08
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sinning too much
i just hope i’m heaven bound
but i know its not the end
why do i feel like time is running out?
you’ve got so much life to live
feeling pain when i feel bliss
exorcism chains they grip
restaurant when i was a kid
and still today
icy hot it goes away
inglewood
the scent of paint
candles on the centerpiece
i wish i could walk away
i wish i could walk away
i wish i could walk away
i wish i could feel the same
terrible and awful pain
i'm sorry that i feel this way
take a picture every day
clouds are like the matinee
everybody goes away
i'm still thinking of what to say
say your name in empty rooms
i just hope i'm getting through
because i don't know what else to do
and still today
my mother calls me every night
i let it ring a thousand times
i hate that i'm afraid to fly
the whole world turned to columbine
i think about you all the time
and stare into the candle light
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everybody wants to be here
everybody wants to try
to fix the worlds most broken person
born the worst day of july
you couldn't hold me closer could you
even if you wanted to
so i'll leave you there beneath the fabric
and make my way out of the room
and i'll try and be as quiet as i can
so you don't know that i've left you
in search of something i don't understand
but i can hear it
it goes do do do
i wanted to be alone
and to be left alone
i wanted to be alone
but then it comes back
i wanted to be alone
and to be left alone
it waits until i'm alone
and then it comes back
i can't help it
so baby don't you want to be here
don't you want to be with me
i'll move the earth to someplace quiet
so you don't have to hear the ring
that echos through my broken body
every night i hear it
it goes do do do
do you like me?
i don't
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4. |
cell
02:57
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carry around my body like a host
stumble around while walking back and forth
i don't know where i am
i don't know where this is
there's something about the distance
it's cryptic
so i don't think i'll go very far
i can't make it where you are so
i'll stay home and i'll do anything
i stay home to get it away from me
get it away from me
this feels like a dream
i don't think i'll go very far
i don't think i'll go out at all
i'll stay home and i'll do anything
i'll stay home to keep it away from me
keep it away from me
this feels like a dream
with just you and me
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5. |
painkiller
02:34
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bring me a warm washcloth
bring me a painkiller
and ill give everything to you
forever
i wish i was stronger
i wish i was an adult
like my dad
like everyone on tv
like everyone that i see
that just seem so normal
that just bite the bullet
i know that i can do it
but i don’t know how
i’lll do it for franklin
i’ll do it for buttercup
i just hope i do enough
it’s fine
it’s fine
it’s fine
i’ve got a whole life
i cannot stress time
it’s always the best time
right now
right now
right now
think about where i could be
and yes i do feel lucky
think about library
and how i need to study
cause i don’t know enough
no i don’t know enough
no i don’t know enough
enough
enough
enough
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6. |
soap
02:19
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be nice to yourself
be nice to yourself
be nice to yourself
i'm worried about you
i’m worried about you
soap in my mouth
wash it all out
pass by your house
lights are all out
i’m worried about you
locks of hair
in a parking lot
dripping snot
i’m worried about you
getting everything i wanted
constantly sick to my stomach
i'm covered in blood
i think i got cut
i'm worried about you
i'm worried about you
i'm worried about you
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7. |
eight months
04:14
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lets play a game
where you guess how i've been
and you get no hints from me
no tragedy
only pictures of my hips
in the dark i'm not very smart
i've been falling over a lot
i think i'm falling apart
i need you
i need you more than i want to
i want to wait for springtime
been sick for so long
it feels like a lifetime
i don't like my body
i know you like my body
sometimes i see my body
and it scares me
in the coming months
i will do my best
not to waste away
so when i step on scales
like they're broken glass
it's to make a change
i need you
i need you more than you need me
it's freeing to admit that
i admit that i hate myself more
when you're not here
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8. |
computer wound
01:32
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9. |
popstar
01:46
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i wanna be a pop star
but i don’t have the voice for that
i wanna be a pop star
but i think i missed my chance
i wanna be a pop star
but i don’t like attention
i wanna be a pop star
but i don’t like to be looked at
i wanna be a pop star
but i work a day job
i wanna have a family
i wanna have a backyard
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shimmer
03:14
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i remember
when i didn't lash out in a temper
i guess it's the pressure
or the fear that the pain lasts forever
it was so easy
and care free
now it haunts me
it's dark and it's empty
i can't see
whats in front of me
because it shimmers
and it goes away
it shimmers
then it goes away
you're like a modern day queen
and i'm just a head full of bad dreams
tonight i'm wondering why i'm still alone
i'm afraid of my cellphone
i know that everybody wants to help me
and they want to know if this is helping
but i can't say
because it shimmers
and it goes away
the light always dwindles
it doesn't stay
you said lets wait until we're both thirty five
i don't see our parents alive
our bodies are velcro
i'm afraid of my cellphone
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11. |
unholy
03:27
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had a dream
my brother tried
to stab out my eyes
i took the knife
we both cried
control yourself
i cannot help myself
i cannot help myself
light under the floor
see you at the door
don’t open it
can’t tell you where I’ve been
die soon
i just might
been alive for a long time
been alive and i love life
alright
hold me like a baby
lately
been feeling unholy
x2
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12. |
regret
01:18
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savor your food as it goes down
green grass in front of courthouse
gives me a specific feeling
it's more than i can deal with
i wanna become a version
of myself that doesn't regret
everything i do
everything i do
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13. |
prayer beads
03:38
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share the most peaceful parts with me
with the beads in my hands
i just hope there's not
an eternity without you
you have always been here
i don't think i belong
the thought that i'll get to hold you
i'd worship any god
you have always been here
i don't think i belong
the thought that i'll get to hold you
i'd worship any god
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14. |
where'd you go
02:23
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holiest water
a drink beside the cup
or maybe you couldn't keep up
water the garden so
the plants don't die
where'd you go
i don't know
all that's left
are your bones
we waste away
everyday
i can't wait
to take you home
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15. |
goodnight dad i love you
02:43
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i’m afraid of losing my hair
i’m afraid of having nothing
i guess anything is something
anything is something
fall asleep at the movies
i've learned what my joy is
bus ride going smoothly
familiar voices
regrettable choices
i'm afraid of losing myself
when i've already lost so much
i'm trying to be normal
like i was before this
fall asleep at a friends house
wake me up for the sunrise
everything is perfect
tombstone in his bedroom
stay up late on thursday
and calling dad to get you
he's coming to get you
he's coming to get you
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